Thursday, May 25, 2017

Ask And You Will Receive


Take delight in the Lord,
    and he will give you the desires of your heart.

     -Psalm 37:4

 Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.

    -Matthew 7:7-12

     I’ve got a story to tell about our trip to visit a church on Wednesday. We went to a church about 20 minutes from where we live. We pulled into the street of the neighborhood, which is a street because of an abandoned railroad track, and I saw a man standing next to a wall. This man had several tattoos and a large scar on his arm. Something grabbed my attention so I looked a second time at him once we had passed, and I felt God was telling me I would speak with this man before I left after church and that I would leave my boots with him. He was a good ways from the church so I prayed that if it were truly something from God then I would have a chance to talk with this man. During the church service I started having different verses pop in my head and I felt God telling me to give my bible, which is English and Spanish, to this man. I would underline the verse and then stick a folded piece of paper to mark the page. Romans 10:13, Romans 6:23, John 14:6, and John 3:16. These verses came to me throughout the talk and I continued to mark them. The church service was wonderful and the church fed us pupusas afterwards. We then headed out to pray for Maynard, a church leader, and his wife who will find out in September if she has cancer. His house was back toward the entrance of the neighborhood, back just past where the man with the tattoos was before. I did not see him but I was praying for an opportunity. We went inside Maynard’s house and prayed for healing for his wife. We were talking after our prayer and I approached Leon and said I needed to go back down the street to give my bible to a man. He said I needed someone to go with me so Maynard and Juan Carlos, my wonderful friend, roommate, and very good translator, came with me. The man with tattoos lives just a few houses down so we went and asked for him. He came out and I told him I had two gifts for him. I said I believe God has brought me from Texas to give you this bible, and I explained how I had underlined and marked a few verses. I then tried to get him to read Romans 10:13, but he said he could not read. This threw me off because I had felt so guided to give him this bible, yet he couldn’t read it. I then asked Juan Carlos to read it. “Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.” I said this is the truth. I also pointed him to Romans 6:23, “For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.” He teared up a little and shared that he had heard about Jesus and looked to Christianity while he was in prison but had walked away from it since being out. He also said there were people there who could read this bible to him and he would share what I had told him with his household. I could see the Holy Spirit moving in him and pulling him toward God. I told him that God wants to know him and God wants you to give your life to Him, every part of your life. I took off my boots and told him I believe God wants me to give you these boots and this bible. We said Dios lo bendiga, God bless you, and parted ways. I don’t know the significance of this meeting to his life and it is quite likely I may never see this man again, but I am certain God led me to this man. I don’t know why I was supposed to give him my bible with those verses or my boots either, but I know it was supposed to happen. I pray that God will continue to pursue this man and that he would put his hope and trust in Jesus.

     The best I understand is that this man has been part of the gangs for a long time, though his responsibilities have changed. Before, I’m not sure when but before, he would have been involved with taking orders and completing tasks given to him, and maybe giving orders. Potentially he would have been involved as a lookout man or a hitman. I don’t know what but he had to be in prison for something. Now his responsibility is more like a doorman, guarding the territory not out of expectation of violence, just to have a presence saying this is “their” territory. I am grateful for this encounter because it lines up with the vision of SHIP, and with Leon in particular, to reach the gangs of El Salvador. I believe God is using our presence in El Salvador to make this a reality.

     I titled this “Ask And You Will Receive” because I, and we as a group, have been praying for God to show us who we need to talk to and that He would bring people into our paths. That’s exactly what happened! I would encourage you to do the same. Ask God to move in your life and He surely will! It most likely won’t be how you picture it to happen, but it will happen!



Friday, May 19, 2017

Day One and a Half Into Summer 2

     I made it back to El Salvador! It brings me great joy to know that God has led me back this summer, and am extremely grateful for the support, prayers, and encouragement from the people in my life. Facebook also reminded me that I flew into El Salvador on May 18, 2016, exactly one year before this trip on May 18, 2017. Just a fun fact...

     When I look at where I was last year versus this year I find myself in a very similar mindset; I expect God to use me and grow me. I am more familiar with my surroundings and some of my responsibilities. But, honestly, there is no way of knowing what to expect. Not specifically. I am certain that God will use my time here to assist SHIP and to make God's name known. We have been preparing for the past day and a half for a conference for pastors and church leaders, which begins tomorrow morning. We are expecting around 50 people to be in attendance. We are very excited to have this opportunity because each of the attendees will be able to reach people we could not. The vision of SHIP, which I share, is not that the people of El Salvador would know who we are and be our friends, but that they would know who God is through Jesus Christ. Through this conference we get to be involved with spreading the name of Jesus with the whole country, not just our neighborhood. That's exciting! There is a good chance we won't see most of the effects from this conference, but people will come to know Jesus because of it and that is why we are here.

     Today has been a very good day. I slept very well and made up for the previous few nights getting little sleep. I woke up at 6, made some Earl Grey, and sat on the front porch to do some reading. I read for a little bit then got distracted by a bunch of noise. At least 15 squirrels were running all around in the three giant mango trees inside the fence. They were having a grand time, and their joy was contagious. I found a lot of comfort in knowing God created them and being able to simply enjoy watching that creation. Another highlight of my day has been reconnecting with different people in the orphanage and community. Seeing their smiles and being able to celebrate our reunion has been something I've been looking forward to. Working alongside and getting to know the small group that came with us has been another good part of this day. We come from different places with different backgrounds and some different opinions but God has led each of us to be here together. 



    While I would say everything is going well, it is far from perfect. I have been dealing with a lot of anxiety in coming to El Salvador this summer. Anxiety with not feeling adequate for the responsibilities I will have, and that someone with different qualities would be better. Yet, I know God has brought me here. Anxiety with having to miss important events for friends and family, such as graduations and weddings. Anxiety that I will hurt friends and family simply because I can't be in as good of contact. Yet, I know God has brought me here. I wouldn't say I'm brokenhearted but I found a very encouraging verse this morning, "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed" Psalm 34: 18. God cares! 
    
     Something I've been doing with a close friend of mine has been sending a song for the day periodically. One of us will send the other a song relating to something we've talked about or something one of us is experiencing. I think I will start doing that with this blog, starting with "Remind Me Who I Am" by Jason Gray.